My gun is bigger than yours
Clark wasnt a particularly large man. He stood about five feet eight inches and weighed around one hundred fifty pounds. Thinking back now he seemed to wear his mustache in order to look more like Charles Bronson. I remember the story of how as a young man he crashed his car through the front of someones house over a fight. The man that we were told of in the stories was never the man we saw. Bookish and nerdery were more appropriate descripitons of the would be tough guy. He spent his time mostly at his computer, drunk, or playing with his guns. The latter two seemed to go hand in hand.
Hugh had a full head of white hair that I cannot remember ever being any other color. He wore the same light blue suit five days a week. He wore a uniform of some sort all of his life I guess. As a young man it was the white bell bottoms of a sailor, then in 1946 he traded that one in for the navy blues of a beat cop, and finally the baby blue suit that matched the crysler sedan he drove while on company time. He seemed content not to talk at all except for when prodded by his wife to tell a dirty joke or to tease a young child. Like many of his generation he didnt need to brag to show his toughness:hell, he defeated Hirohito. Not until my brother Ryan enlisted in the navy did we learn that he was on ship at many famous battles in the Pacific.
Guns meant pistols to Clark who didnt own a rifle. I remember he even had a pistol with a scope mounted on top of it. Like a child collecting all of his favorite action figures he had all of the action stars chosen weapons. The Walther PPK was the perfect accessory for an evening at the opera. The .454 magnum hung perfectly in the shoulder holseter for those occasoions when grizzly bear might happen by but his favorite was the .357 magnum revolver. Even at breakfast you could see the crome relfection in his eyes. Time stood still for him when he was loading, unloading and twirling his wonderful toys.
I dont recall much gun talk from my Grandfather. He had a double barrel shotgun that was fairly easy to find but even to this day Ive never seen a shotgun shell in his home. The only gun that I really associate with Hugh is his .38 snubnose revolver. It remindes me of the little cap guns that you can find in the pharmacy’s toy isle. No self respecting action hero would carry such a tiny little gun. I never actually saw the entire gun. The only glimpses we ever got of it were when he would reach into his back pocket for his wallet and then you would get a flash of his P.I. Badge and his pistol. It was always stifled by the brown leather hoslter that seemed permanantly attached.
The shiney glint of chrome steel paled when compared to Clarks love of Russian Water. When his passion was in bloom he could consume as much as two fifths in a day. His cheeks would flare and his speech would slide and if these telltale signs were not obvious enough, the guns would always rat him out. Perhaps through jealosy the pistols jockeyed for their masters attention ever eager to go the extra mile in order to please. The .22 had that clever little barrel that mad it part breech loader and part automatic. Like a cobra kit car the Taurus 9mm looked and felt just like the Italian Beretta 92FS. The .38 revolver with the 4inch barrel was perfect for twirlling but there was just something insatiable about sliding those hollow point .357 magnum bullets one by one into the cylinder of a perectly balance Smith & Wesson. Even my mother could not compete for his attention when that weapon was in his eyes. She used all of her southern charm to entice him to stop fooling around with those dangerous things and when that didn’t work she would nag. It was during one of her attempts to persuade him to put aside his true love and come watch some TV with her that he got angry and pointed the gun at her, saying “Go away or Ill kill you”. Furious, she did what any southern lady would do in her situation. She called her daddy.
When Hugh arrived my mother met him at the door. She pleaded “Daddy, I just want him to put those damn guns away.” Hugh replied “Now Linda, you know, you could call the police.”.
“I dont even want momma to know”. To that his response was simply a long serious stare that ended in my mother looking away as if she had stared too long into bright light. Now that the course was set Hugh only needed the facts. “Where is he”. “Are the guns loaded”…. “Upstairs” “Yes” Like any other sixty year old man he held onto the railing to start the stairs.
At the top of the stairs was the doorway to Clarks office where he sat slouching in his office chair with stretched out while he slowly rocked side to side. “Hey there, Hugh, what brings you here?” “Clark, I wanted to talk to you” Clark made a fifteen degree turn towoard Hughs direction “Oh, yea, whatcha wanna talk about.” Hugh sits down on the edge of the desk “First why dont you put that gun away” Clark shrugs “This, dont worry, its harmless.” Hugh leans forward “Well, thats what I wanted to talk to you about.” “Yea?” “Yea” Clark sits up a little “What did you want to say” Hugh leans slightly back “Clark will you put that gun away.” “What if I dont” Hugh flips the edge of his coat back reaches around the back of his waist and slides his revolver around to situate it so that now its right below where the pockets of a casual jacket would be. “Either you put your gun away or Ill take mine out”.
There was a time when I thought that my gradfathers way of talking was odd. He seemed to alomost hold his breath and talk at the same time. It was as if he was strained to get the words out. As young boys we even made fun of his voice sometimes. Now in my mind just thinking of his voice I cant help but think my grandad sounds just like Clint Eastwood.